honerable_mention_xo on Xanga

[ in ][ home ][ sub ][ claf ][ junebugjuly ][ out ]

Samantha

My name is Sam. I'm 2o years old, 5'2" and live on the south side of Chicago. I have ADD and Dyslexia. I'm working on my phlebotomy certification.

-My Tumblr
-My Facebook

honerable_mention_xo
read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Sam Gender: Female Message: message me Member Since: 12/3/2006

SubscriptionsSites I Read
Subscribe to honerable_mention_xo Get trial subscription xdaydreaming katiekaakes tothestarsandbeyond tragicgraphic petiteamor food_dropout xUniquelyMehx silent_hidden_PEARL thin_ana_is_in Iamgettingby LindzyFace brenonnie tinysparrow_thinspo rattlingbones eyelinergraphics power_trip_tips lovelyish@lovelyish FIREExATxWILL powwow_lyts picture_awesome pictographss

Groups Blogrings
DNA: National Dyslexia Association previous - random - next

Posting Calendar

\|<< oldest \| newest >>\|
view all weblog archives

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

I think I'm slipping back into my depression...

And I’m just so scared. I don’t know what to do. I just want to be happy. WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?!?! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO BE HAPPY?!?! I work so hard, I try to do my best, but life just it’s working out you know? Maybe I should just go way.

Someone save me. I’m done. I just can’t keep doing this.

What did I do to deserve this? Why do I have to fight this hard??

11:07 PM - 1 view - add eprops - add comments - email it

Friday, October 07, 2011

So now that I've lost everything, I guess all I have left is potential. Time to rebuild.

- I went to a gym for the first time ever. I liked it, I gave it a thumbs up.
- Told my mom I want to see a therapist again.
- Applied for 4 phlebotomy jobs and got emails back saying I do not meet their qualifications due to no previous history/jobs drawing blood.
- bought my dad (really for the both of us.) an iPad for his 50th birthday on the 10th.
- 3 of 4 of my friends aren’t talking to me.

11:34 PM - 2 views - add eprops - add comments - email it

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

	I don't wanna kill myself, I just don't want to wake up tomorrow.
	1:02 AM - 3 views - add eprops - add comments - email it

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

	I don't wanna be here anymore. I don't want to kill myself, I just want to die in my sleep.
	1:35 AM - 1 view - add eprops - add comments - email it

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Wow!!! I never thought I'd be so excited about a drug before.

So, way back like 4 years ago, I was put on the medicine Diazepam for my jaw. (because I clenched my jaw all night and it was causing me terrible pain in the day time.) Anyway, diazepam is a muscle relaxer. I had to take it at night because it would make me weak. This stuff would kick-in in like 5 mins. I once took it, but got distracted on the computer, and when I got up to move 4 feet to my bed, I FELL!!! I felt drunk! With out the nausea! It was so carefree feeling and just silly.

Now, my Dad has a prescription for it! And a refill! Dude, this stuff is staring me in the face! I want the whole bottle to myself! I took four….. for now.

11:24 PM - 1 view - add eprops - add comments - email it

Next 5 >>